I wish

I wish...

People, at least some of them, would come to me and tell me that it's okay.

That it's okay for me to have a gay tendenct while not wanting to act on it.

It's okay for me to wish those strange acts strongly and maybe shamelessly...

To cry on their shoulders. To cry my hearts out, everything that was felt within me.

I, I just want to live peacefully under God's guidance. Within His love and doing all that He wants of me.

I am an imperfect being. So imperfect that I end up not fulfilling many of God's commandments.

I wish someone said that it was okay. That I've done my best. That I would be able to do better and better next time.

That I was just a human just like them. That I was not weird... That I was not a disgrace or anything super bad.

I, just want to have people that are sincerely loving me without any judgment. That can accept me with open arms and heart.

To have someone that I can talk with... Even though I'm imperfect and forever be.

So that I don't have to simply dismiss things that I feel in my heart. But to accept them and process them healthily and peacefully.

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